SO this poem is called 21 dreams, this one is the first of its kind that m writing. It is based on the dreams I been getting since the past 21 days. It is kindda messed up in a really twisted way because as soon as I get this dream I can’t really go back to sleep and this just makes me cranky and miserable. But somehow it also shows a very twisted emotions humans face.
People cry about a lot of things these days, they say that they fall in love, then they get together and then few days later, “Okay yea I’m bored lets see other people.” which is something I hate, and trust me it kindda makes situation hard for people who actually do fall in love but cannot be together because of past experience. Something like this happened to me as well, and is still going on and is pissing me off, but still I have the same feeling for her no matter whatever happens.
So she went abroad to study as that is what seemed best in this case I guess. This story when it touched my ears made me miserable. I did not want her to go away as I actually wanted to do anything I could to make her happy. Again I guess it was not written in my faith but it was like this that once you fall for someone, you just need to do anything to see them happy, maybe to make them feel the same way. I failed in that miserably (I actually did and it seems very funny to my mates!). Anyways so she told me that she is going away and would not be here for almost an year. Kind of shattered all the plan I made to make her mine! Some of them actually changed a lot of things and is now the way I live, again thanks to her and it actually made me feel better. I don’t exactly know what to do in this case anymore. It seems like as if whatever I do won’t make much of difference now. So for some reason I started getting these dreams and it is haunting my sleep. It has been going on since past 21 days and has left me sleepless since over a freaking month. Its not like my feelings are changed for her but the dream is just a twisted thing.
So here goes! I hope you fellas like this. As before your comments are always appreciated! And also huge thanks to my regular readers, you make the blogging experience worth while!
All this time I had no clues,
Never thought out of them all it would be you,
Never knew someone would make me the way I am,
You made me feel special knowhing how I am.
I look at your pictures everyday,
Atleast there is one thing I can praise!
But ever since you said you would be leaving,
Going to the land far far away from there,
Broke my heart, made me cry,
I wanted to spend time togther,
Wanted to know you better.
All I ever wanted was to stay with you,
Hold you in my arms and always see you,
Keep you happy and give you everything,
Write songs of us being together,
Show the world what an amazing girl I fell in love with.
But you decided to leave,
Go abroad and leave me all alone here,
I don’t even know what to do,
But all I know is I can’t live with out you.
All I think about is you!
All I see is you!
All I dream about is you….
Nobody told me it would be so hard to carry on,
But all I need is you to be around,
The feeling of you going is haunting my sleeps,
And seems like you don’t even care about it,
Give me one chance to set it all right,
I would do anything to be with you.
But I sad a dream that changed everything,
It was you standing just near me,
Saying that you are leaving,
Gave me a smile and said I would be able to handle it,
But look at me now its been 21 days since I slept.
In a white gown you stand,
With hair flowing in the air,
Holding a rose in your hand!
And saying that you can never be mine.
That dream haunts me every night,
And it made me miserble day and night.
Everyday I see you in my dreams,
We talk about things and try to make it better,
I wish we could talk like that once,
Maybe I could make you understand how I feel,
But how can I possibly make you understand,
That you touched my heart, you touched my soul!
Just say yes once and I would do anything to make it right,
I would come and live with you and try to make you happy,
Sing you songs of your fav bands!
Talk all day and let all the emotions flow!
All I want to do is to be with you,
To hug you, to hold your hand,
To kiss you goodnight.
To say I love you.
Seems like you never understood that part,
But looks like I turned out to be you dumb lover.
All I can see right now is you,
Writing this prose thinking of you.
I don’t know if you would ever get to read it.
But all I wanna say is I cannot live with you.